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| my current favorite song is a oldie by justin timberlake in his justified album. the song is called on my brain it's a really good song. you guys should listen to it :] here is the lyrics to the song. The beautiful days are long gone
I can't seem to breathe
It feels like it hasn't been that long
Since you walked away from me
Now I can try to act real strong
But you and I both know I still think of you that way
You should know:that
The beautiful lights the star filled nights
They don't mean a thing
Cause you were my star and so it don't seem right
Without you here with me
Now I can try to act real strong
But you and I both know its hard for me to say
You were my soul:
Now I could say that I don't love you no more
And I could say that I've closed the door for our love
And I can tell you I feel It's time for us to go our separate ways
But baby I just wouldn't be the same
Cause girl your love is still on my brain
Now when your in love it takes time to heal
When someone's broken your heart and changes how you feel
Girl I thought that you'd never do me that way
But even after all I still think of you that way
Now I could say that I don't love you no more
And I could say that I've closed the door for our love
And I can tell you I feel It's time for us to go our separate ways
But baby I just wouldn't be the same
Cause girl your love is still on my brain
Now love is a game that we both like to play
But will I win or lose if I go or if I stay
Even though I try to hide my broken heart inside
Girl you know me inside out and I can't get you off my mind
Now I could say that I don't love you no more
And I could say that I've closed the door for our love
And I can tell you I feel It's time for us to go our separate ways
But baby I just wouldn't the same
Cause girl your love is still on my brain
this song doesn't mean anything. i just like it cuz it's soothing. note to myself. life is too short to waste. make your decisions wisely, and don't regret. cuz when you regret, that means you didn't like the decision you made. you just gotta keep it real. | | |
| i had a 3 day weekend, and it was fuking awesome. friday, i drove back to the REAL 714 oc to meet up with my gf/bff/fake gf jessica, so we can go to LA clubbing together. Then we picked up charles, and went to lambdas/kdphi convention club party. it was pretty fun. i know charles definitely had fun, cuz he hooked up with a lambda lil sis. HAHAHAHA. im proud of u charles. i bet you are too. hahahhahah. after the club party, we went to eat at a 24 hours tofu house called hondori. it was yummy. then i went to UCLA and crashed at charles' dorm. we had a very intelligent and meaningful conversation that night. o did i mention it was also long? so we didn't wake up until 5:30 saturday afternoon. i had to wake up and take shower really fast to get ready to go to lilian's party. her party was da bomb. drunk/high ppl everywhere, and she had a pool. sunday, charles and i were sitting in his room, decide where to go, and the name robin popped out of my mind. so we went to robin's house in riverside. basically, everybody was having a lot of fun, cuz most of us were high. and charles fell asleep and got drawn on x] It was a sick ass weekend, totally needed it. | | |
| okay, so basically i got owned by a barber shop called "happy barber". yesterday, i needed a hair cut due to the club party on thursday. (girls, i did this for you guys). so i went into the barber shop pretty happy, but came out sad. they eff up my hair pretty bad. the side of my hair is too long compare to my top. it's unproportional. therefore, i came back to africa (my dorm) and asked the asian barber (frank fu) to fix it. because it was really bad. you will see later in this xanga entry when i post up the pictures. i swear frank fu has magic power. after 30 mins of hard concentration, he finally made my hair look normal. x] therefore, fatass rishi can't make fun of my hair anymore. HA!
so...here is the emo part of the entry.
i don't know what i did wrong, but i guess i was wrong. i neglected someone for a good 3 months. but i still think of her...as a good friend. i wish things could have worked out the way i wanted to. but hey, not everybody gets what they want. plus what i want isn't necessary what they need. but love it or hate it, cuz i am who i am.
song for the moment.
nobody knows but me by babyface (thanks allandale)
Wish I told her how I feel,
Maybe she'd be here right now...
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around
The nights are lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me (yeah)
I lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'd scream out at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still
The nights are lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
Tomorrow morning
I'm hittin the dusty road
Gonna find you where ever
Ever you might go
And I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Say when the nights are lonely
The nights are lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
The nights are lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
The nights are lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
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| first thought poped in my mind: i need a girlfriend
today, we ended a 2 and a months cycle. we ended where it all started. 3 people at the beach, with nothing to do and nothing to lose. it was a quite refreshing thing to do. it was mellow and fun at the same time. the same laugh. the same beach. i will definitely miss this and for sure have it memorize in my brain. i promised van i would go to water from now on, starting tomorrow. eRr. i have to wake up at nine in the morning. i don't even remember the last time i ate lunch. how the hell am i going to wake up at 9 when the breakfast is served. anyway. time to go to bed. R.I.P. ________ cycle 5.17.06
I WILL ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!
the good old pool time in taiwan. 2005
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| Today was a pretty fun day. Went to Aaron's house around 10 to play poker. Lost 20 bucks, but it was definitely worth the fun i had. So while driving back to campus from Arron's house, i was playing my Chinese Cds. They remind me of Taiwan; all the fun i had in Taiwan the past few years. I desperately want to go back to Taiwan; to shop, eat, and enjoy the atmosphere. Too bad i have to take summer school til mid august. But it's chill because i will go to Taiwan after summer school, which is going to be awesome.
I seriously hate myself with passion right now.
Need to change something about myself. While i'm in the process of finding what i need to change, i will change my hair first. im going to get a haircut tomorrow. yay! im excited for the new look.
i just found out, im pretty....
imperfect
+
immature
still just a teenager boy
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